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White knuckles on the first bicycle

As told by Ajahn Brahm in Letting Go of Fear | Ajahn Brahm | 22-05-2009

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The story — as told by Ajahn Brahm (verbatim captions)

This story I remember when I was young. I was young and my father, I begged him, and he saved up, I think, for a birthday or a Christmas. I can't remember what. He bought me a bicycle. The first bicycle I ever had. And, of course, being a kid with his first bicycle, you get on that bicycle and try to ride it and keep falling off. And I kept falling off and I never realised why until I looked at myself. I was holding on to those handle bars with so much fear that my knuckles went white. I was so afraid of falling off and my body was as stiff as a plank. And because I was so stiff, I was holding on too tight. Whenever the bike would move to the left, I would never be able to compensate. My body was too stiff to bend and to accommodate, which is why I kept falling off. It was fear that kept pushing me over. And it was only later on when I just relaxed, I found that I could stay on that bicycle with more ease. In fact, when you're really relaxed, you didn't fall off at all.

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A reflection (in the spirit of Ajahn Brahm's talk)

White knuckles and a body stiff as a plank kept the boy falling off his first bike; once he relaxed, he stayed on. In a new job, a tense conversation or heavy traffic, gripping hard makes us less able to adjust. Loosen your hold a little and trust yourself to balance. Steadiness comes from ease, not force.

In brief (our summary)

Young Ajahn Brahm's father saves up for his first bicycle; he keeps falling off until he notices his white knuckles and plank-stiff body — fear made him unable to balance. Once he relaxed, he stopped falling.

Teaching point

What we fear, we tend to bring about; relaxing makes us more stable.

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Source & credit

Told by Ajahn Brahm in Letting Go of Fear | Ajahn Brahm | 22-05-2009 · 2009-06-12 · ▶ watch from 5:59 to 7:19 · Buddhist Society of Western Australia

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